My heart survived but it still confused me — When you know personal pain and suffering it generally opens up your heart to the suffering of others. All my life I have felt what I thought was an abnormal sensitivity to their pain. It conflicted with the male world I was raised in. It punished weakness, and kindness. By…

A woman who never had the chance to be a little girl — Who is Emma? She is a woman who never had a chance to be a little girl. She is a person inside a person. Her thoughts were always censured by a binary filter in order for her words to be accepted by the world she grew up with. She is…

The Answer for Those Rely on Biology for Gender — Zombies are just an animated bag of bones and flesh. They have no sense of consciousness. They have no sense of gender. They simply exist. …But they all have penises and vaginas and have no clue what they mean. Taking this humorous horror fiction to the real world, what makes…

Don’t ever give them a second look — I have entered a strange world of awareness as I continue my transition from male to female. I was born biologically male but hard-wired female before birth. I am not going to debate here whether I am a woman or what a woman is. I know that I am a…

The ache of gender dysphoria is invisible — When you have a toothache or a headache or backache, you can describe it to your doctor and draw some sympathetic nods from those around you. The ache of gender dysphoria is invisible and near impossible to explain. I live in New York City and even my regular doctors seem…

There are some lives that, for entirely random reasons, occur and are painful in the loneliness that they need to endure. Rebecca’s was one such life. She was an only child of two professional parents. She was the product of their façade of a family to further the thin veneer…

Hot time, summer in the city — I am spending another summer in my gender twilight zone. I present as male but, after being diagnosed as a transgender female and 4 years on HRT (female hormones), I have a very respectable pair of female breasts. 38DD to be exact. I can’t, in either good conscience and for…

We don’t get them. Let’s get something out of the way, I wish I had periods. It would mean I was born as I was meant to be, a typical cisgender female. I wasn’t. …

Women I Love and Women I’d Love to Be — As someone who is transgender, my crushes were more complicated than most. I have crushes on women because I like women and I have crushes on women because I wanted to be them. Complicated huh? As a repressed MTF transgender female, I have always loved ROMCOMs (romantic comedies). …