AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is so hard. This really sucks. How can I do this??????????????????? There has to be another way ……………………………………… aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A little graphically dramatic but definitely how I feel right now.

I feel my gender and my birth sex slapping my face back and forth in a cruel game of emotional ping pong. Admittedly I have, even lightly, banged the my head against the wall, both front and back. It sounds…