The Missing Link

I have lived the majority of my life in a strictly binary world of male and female. I was taught at an early age that that was all there was, there were no other genders. As my life progressed, I became aware of gay and lesbian people. They were binary too but their big difference was that they only liked the members of their same gender. Somewhere along the line, I became aware of another group, they weren’t clearly defined as binary. Society didn’t even have a name for them. I even heard them referred to as “It”.

Fast forward to 2015, Bruce Jenner comes out as Caitlyn and I begin to internalize the name “transgender”. It confused me. I agreed with others that surgeries, dresses and hormones don’t make you a woman so how could Bruce make that claim… but I wasn’t really sure what it made you.

I didn’t understand what transgender really was but it was the beginning of my internal awareness. There was something different about me, but what?

Over the next two years, my confusion grew. My confusion became turmoil. Suddenly it became very personal and I couldn’t understand why. I have been accused of over-thinking everything; well my over-thinking went into overdrive.

What was wrong with me?

In 2018, after having suicidal thoughts, I sought professional counseling and read everything I could only to discover a simple…